Life was all good when Blackberry and Apple were just fruits.When technology grows, comparison grows even more faster.There was a period, i was struggling to get a Nokia 1100, but now have a bit hifi mobile in hand. Whats the use?.After finishing those 3 years in college i wanted to try my hands & luck in the Cinema Industry. I was trying to join as Asst. Cinematographer and with one senior in my area i achieved that target by joining as a last assistant to Cameraman R.Diwakaran and that tamil movie was `Chathurangam`.In that near 1 month of work as Asst.cameraman, happened to watch that films director Palaniappan, who was discribing about his then GF and now wife who is a malayaalee. I was very happy at that time and told my self that the director is running behind a mallu and me behind a Telugu.So prepared some romantic dialogues that i thought is a multi purpose. Can say that to my GF and can use that in cinema too...but both dint happen.
After proposing her in the morning i was checking the clock every 2 minutes to reach that magical time of evening 7.30.Though she had a mobile at that time,for me there was only 2 source of mobile. One is my Fathers Tata Indicom and the other is College going neighbour`s Hutch (which is now Vodafone).Father went to office & the neighbour went to college, there was a big battle going inside my stomach between the King Kong and the dinosaurs, so dint call her from PCO. Telling the word MOBILE itself is a costly thing to me by then.Not like the present luxurious situation like Updating Facebook status like ``i am breathing normally`` from company`s laptop. But later bought a Sony Ericsson Camera mobile to take her a pic and keep it as Wallpaper, that dint happen anyway and before i did this she bought a camera phone (for her) showed it to me and tried to take a picture as i denied. because it was night 8 o clock and i know if someone takes a picture of mine in 2.0 MP camera at that time will look like a voter ID card photo.
Evening 7.30, waiting in the bus stand, followed by her arrival. No conversation for the 1st five minutes. She broke the silence by ``what did you do today`` Me - without telling the morning 7.30 proposal accident ``was watching India - W.Indies high lights, went to provion store...then....`` --She `` Then....went to suresh`s house...rite`` Me ``ya`` She `` What you both will talk man,whole day....leave it...you dont have any courtesy towards me...proposing at that peak time, my total work is pending today and dono when will i complete that`` Me, all of a sudden got much spiritual and was praying every possible god in India. She continued `` You know much a rose cost rs 3 to 5. You dont have that brain to bring at least a rose and propose.`` appaaaaaa....Success... That was the 1st ever success ( & last too) in my life. But with which i cannot celebrate openly and not in a position to give treat.
As usual immediately flew to exotic location in Swiss for a dream sequence and unable to keep my feet in the earth. After this success i immediately joined a gym adjacent to her house with that College going neighbour and started doing heavy exercises with the Iron rods with out the weights.She too reciprocated by coming outside her house for unwanted reason like brushing, combing, cutting vegetables and other useless things.As i was related to cinema then, i used fix a frame with my hand, focus her and say `` see man, only girls can look this pretty, even when they are in their night costumes, just imagine us...(puking)``reply `` now i understood why you accepted to come to gym with me``...I know that she learned Bharatanatyam dance and told her to do a small step for me, she did...i praised her as if she gave a non stop performance for hours.(My sister knows Carnatic classical music and she used to practice and sing for hours, not even a single word of praise from my mouth, even now).After this initial happiness, the usual advice sessions from GF started.1. When are you going to complete your degree. 2. How long you are going waste time in Cinema with out going for a proper job.3. If you want cinema, leave me, if you want me, leave cinema...4. and at last the usual one....Why all your friends are like that..( as if all her friends are like Anushka Sharma....)So started changing myself. 1st left my ambition entering Cinema. 2nd thought of completing the degree, but changed as it was not possible. Then Look out for a job. Joined in Medical transcription company(as i learned it in between) 2 Companies in 3 months.Then 20 days in Share Market Company.Then using my cousins influence got a Job in Nittany decisions and then through my dad`s help joined as a Sales Rep in reputed Pharmaceutical Company( i am a chemistry Student). All these jobs changed within 7 to 8 months and depended on the place were my GF got job(& still the mind running on CINEMA).After all this, wanted to stick to one place and i had a mission of running 3 things Successfully. 1. Love 2.Cinema & 3. Studies.Joined a company named CAMS in a night shift job for a /day salary of 90 (thooo). Used to finish the night shift and come accordingly to meet my then GF accordingly both in the mornings & evenings, And used my criminal mind to bring her to new house in my street which is 100 mts from my house.Things become more simple.
Everything was going very well until my middle class mind started thinking something else. Before my love happened My mother & sister are the only Females i know and i am very close with. For me, to see a girl wearing a jeans is like watching a Hindi film heroine in Fully covered costume. She started wearing this kind of modern outfits and completely stopped wearing her regular Salwars & Sarees.Cut Short her lengthy Hair.This irritated me and i was xpecting her to change this and that dint happen. Rather enjoying and admiring her beauty i got irritated by the behaviour of her. I felt like, i almost sacrificed my cinema ambition for her and expected same kind of ``sacrifices`` from her, but all went in vain.This small drops of incidents got converted in to a big oceans of trouble.All of a sudden she came up with another usual Nuclear weapon of Girls community, that is her parents started looking for a ``BETTER`` groom for her.She even told that the grooms are from Wipro, Polaris and GRO...and asked a question to me like ``wats your company name...CAMS, wats that``This ignited the self respect in me and i told her to proceed with her marriage according to their parents wishes. Later i came down and asked for a years time too. She came up with the usual ``run away`` or ``get married and stay in their respective houses`` ideas. But i was against that idea of marrying against Parents and i had a younger sister too.The one big main reason i hesitated that time for those ideas, was my professional growth, i was earning much lesser than her then.
After all this we had a big fight one day, and i told that you are not the only girl who is ``WHITE`` in this world and there is more possibilities to get a better one than you, dint think that fight will be the last official fight for us as lovers.Next day i was sitting in a shop in the street corner with friends and was giving marks to girls passing by..She came, called me and asked you dont feel for what you spoke yesterday....i said `no, i was just answering for the questions you asked`.She went back.No contacts for 1 week and i heard a shock news of they vacated the house. And no contacts for 6 months. In between all this i joined in a reputed Mobile VAS company in Chennai. One day was watching a movie and got a sms ``where are you?`` reply ``in theatre watching movie, alone``.thats last official sms i sent from my mobile to her.
One saturday i recieved a call when i was taking rest in my home, the call was from her happily picked up & answered ``hai`` she asked me ``where are you`` me ``I am in my house`` She `` Ok come out, i am waiting in the street end``WOW....this is what i was waiting for, the speed which i got ready and ran outside my house, i am sure that i would have beaten Usain Bolt by miles. Went near by her with all smiles and asked How are you.Without replying for that she said `` you should definitely come and this is my invitation`` Her marriage is fixed on the same day i proposed her and she is giving the invitation in the same place where i proposed. Came back home with tears coming out of my eyes like giving polio drops to an infant.Stood outside for some 5 minutes, as going inside the house crying will heavily damage my image.Went inside the house my mother was waiting and asked `` why did you run like a dog chasing a bone`` no reply from me...``i am asking you....```before completing i gave that invitation to my mom. No signs of lip movement for the next 5 minutes. The she broke that silence`` Why she has become that big or what, cannot come here even and give the invitation to you``. I said everything is over. Doesnt make a change if she gives invitation inside the home or outside.
Everything looked dark (like me) for some months...but i felt that there is no Serious Lover Boy like Leonardo di Caprio in me, There is only Jim Carrey. So left the romantic route and started following the usual comedy route. Because of her i started Gym, Started learning music, improved dressing sense, little Bit English Knowledge...everything is there with me now (except her).During that relation with her, no of my friends become enemies, Her father become a comedian, My father become a villain and i become a hero....later i found that everything was wrong and i am just a comedian...I should thank her for converting a nomad in to a civilized citizen.
Final Touch: During my sisters marriage my father asked me`` is that girl girl coming`` i understood and asked him ``which girl`` he said ``that tall brahmin girl`` i asked him `` who is that``.Thankfully my mother came in to my rescue and told me to look after the work and explained him that we are no longer in relationship. Poor fellow he was thinking i am still continuing with her. Even in that marriage tension there was a sigh of relief for him and that was clearly visible in his face.....
After proposing her in the morning i was checking the clock every 2 minutes to reach that magical time of evening 7.30.Though she had a mobile at that time,for me there was only 2 source of mobile. One is my Fathers Tata Indicom and the other is College going neighbour`s Hutch (which is now Vodafone).Father went to office & the neighbour went to college, there was a big battle going inside my stomach between the King Kong and the dinosaurs, so dint call her from PCO. Telling the word MOBILE itself is a costly thing to me by then.Not like the present luxurious situation like Updating Facebook status like ``i am breathing normally`` from company`s laptop. But later bought a Sony Ericsson Camera mobile to take her a pic and keep it as Wallpaper, that dint happen anyway and before i did this she bought a camera phone (for her) showed it to me and tried to take a picture as i denied. because it was night 8 o clock and i know if someone takes a picture of mine in 2.0 MP camera at that time will look like a voter ID card photo.
Evening 7.30, waiting in the bus stand, followed by her arrival. No conversation for the 1st five minutes. She broke the silence by ``what did you do today`` Me - without telling the morning 7.30 proposal accident ``was watching India - W.Indies high lights, went to provion store...then....`` --She `` Then....went to suresh`s house...rite`` Me ``ya`` She `` What you both will talk man,whole day....leave it...you dont have any courtesy towards me...proposing at that peak time, my total work is pending today and dono when will i complete that`` Me, all of a sudden got much spiritual and was praying every possible god in India. She continued `` You know much a rose cost rs 3 to 5. You dont have that brain to bring at least a rose and propose.`` appaaaaaa....Success... That was the 1st ever success ( & last too) in my life. But with which i cannot celebrate openly and not in a position to give treat.
As usual immediately flew to exotic location in Swiss for a dream sequence and unable to keep my feet in the earth. After this success i immediately joined a gym adjacent to her house with that College going neighbour and started doing heavy exercises with the Iron rods with out the weights.She too reciprocated by coming outside her house for unwanted reason like brushing, combing, cutting vegetables and other useless things.As i was related to cinema then, i used fix a frame with my hand, focus her and say `` see man, only girls can look this pretty, even when they are in their night costumes, just imagine us...(puking)``reply `` now i understood why you accepted to come to gym with me``...I know that she learned Bharatanatyam dance and told her to do a small step for me, she did...i praised her as if she gave a non stop performance for hours.(My sister knows Carnatic classical music and she used to practice and sing for hours, not even a single word of praise from my mouth, even now).After this initial happiness, the usual advice sessions from GF started.1. When are you going to complete your degree. 2. How long you are going waste time in Cinema with out going for a proper job.3. If you want cinema, leave me, if you want me, leave cinema...4. and at last the usual one....Why all your friends are like that..( as if all her friends are like Anushka Sharma....)So started changing myself. 1st left my ambition entering Cinema. 2nd thought of completing the degree, but changed as it was not possible. Then Look out for a job. Joined in Medical transcription company(as i learned it in between) 2 Companies in 3 months.Then 20 days in Share Market Company.Then using my cousins influence got a Job in Nittany decisions and then through my dad`s help joined as a Sales Rep in reputed Pharmaceutical Company( i am a chemistry Student). All these jobs changed within 7 to 8 months and depended on the place were my GF got job(& still the mind running on CINEMA).After all this, wanted to stick to one place and i had a mission of running 3 things Successfully. 1. Love 2.Cinema & 3. Studies.Joined a company named CAMS in a night shift job for a /day salary of 90 (thooo). Used to finish the night shift and come accordingly to meet my then GF accordingly both in the mornings & evenings, And used my criminal mind to bring her to new house in my street which is 100 mts from my house.Things become more simple.
Everything was going very well until my middle class mind started thinking something else. Before my love happened My mother & sister are the only Females i know and i am very close with. For me, to see a girl wearing a jeans is like watching a Hindi film heroine in Fully covered costume. She started wearing this kind of modern outfits and completely stopped wearing her regular Salwars & Sarees.Cut Short her lengthy Hair.This irritated me and i was xpecting her to change this and that dint happen. Rather enjoying and admiring her beauty i got irritated by the behaviour of her. I felt like, i almost sacrificed my cinema ambition for her and expected same kind of ``sacrifices`` from her, but all went in vain.This small drops of incidents got converted in to a big oceans of trouble.All of a sudden she came up with another usual Nuclear weapon of Girls community, that is her parents started looking for a ``BETTER`` groom for her.She even told that the grooms are from Wipro, Polaris and GRO...and asked a question to me like ``wats your company name...CAMS, wats that``This ignited the self respect in me and i told her to proceed with her marriage according to their parents wishes. Later i came down and asked for a years time too. She came up with the usual ``run away`` or ``get married and stay in their respective houses`` ideas. But i was against that idea of marrying against Parents and i had a younger sister too.The one big main reason i hesitated that time for those ideas, was my professional growth, i was earning much lesser than her then.
After all this we had a big fight one day, and i told that you are not the only girl who is ``WHITE`` in this world and there is more possibilities to get a better one than you, dint think that fight will be the last official fight for us as lovers.Next day i was sitting in a shop in the street corner with friends and was giving marks to girls passing by..She came, called me and asked you dont feel for what you spoke yesterday....i said `no, i was just answering for the questions you asked`.She went back.No contacts for 1 week and i heard a shock news of they vacated the house. And no contacts for 6 months. In between all this i joined in a reputed Mobile VAS company in Chennai. One day was watching a movie and got a sms ``where are you?`` reply ``in theatre watching movie, alone``.thats last official sms i sent from my mobile to her.
One saturday i recieved a call when i was taking rest in my home, the call was from her happily picked up & answered ``hai`` she asked me ``where are you`` me ``I am in my house`` She `` Ok come out, i am waiting in the street end``WOW....this is what i was waiting for, the speed which i got ready and ran outside my house, i am sure that i would have beaten Usain Bolt by miles. Went near by her with all smiles and asked How are you.Without replying for that she said `` you should definitely come and this is my invitation`` Her marriage is fixed on the same day i proposed her and she is giving the invitation in the same place where i proposed. Came back home with tears coming out of my eyes like giving polio drops to an infant.Stood outside for some 5 minutes, as going inside the house crying will heavily damage my image.Went inside the house my mother was waiting and asked `` why did you run like a dog chasing a bone`` no reply from me...``i am asking you....```before completing i gave that invitation to my mom. No signs of lip movement for the next 5 minutes. The she broke that silence`` Why she has become that big or what, cannot come here even and give the invitation to you``. I said everything is over. Doesnt make a change if she gives invitation inside the home or outside.
Everything looked dark (like me) for some months...but i felt that there is no Serious Lover Boy like Leonardo di Caprio in me, There is only Jim Carrey. So left the romantic route and started following the usual comedy route. Because of her i started Gym, Started learning music, improved dressing sense, little Bit English Knowledge...everything is there with me now (except her).During that relation with her, no of my friends become enemies, Her father become a comedian, My father become a villain and i become a hero....later i found that everything was wrong and i am just a comedian...I should thank her for converting a nomad in to a civilized citizen.
Final Touch: During my sisters marriage my father asked me`` is that girl girl coming`` i understood and asked him ``which girl`` he said ``that tall brahmin girl`` i asked him `` who is that``.Thankfully my mother came in to my rescue and told me to look after the work and explained him that we are no longer in relationship. Poor fellow he was thinking i am still continuing with her. Even in that marriage tension there was a sigh of relief for him and that was clearly visible in his face.....
as usual twist and a successful love failure..........
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